Got back Neuroscience results today. I failed a test for the first time in my entire life. (And not just a borderline failure either.) Surprisingly I’m not as devastated as I think I should be; was making self-deprecating jokes to Addie all the way back from the noticeboard. Nearly laughed out loud when I saw the bar chart of the grades – I can actually point out exactly where (and no I don’t just mean which bar) I’m on it. I did expect that I’d do really badly, but not fail! *lol*
Oh well. This is spurring me on to study really hard, and to find better ways of studying. I now think I work best with blank paper and pencil. I shouldn’t even try to divide the page into columns. No. Just me, an erasable tool and a blank slate. No fancy colours or markers that cause distraction.
(Out of point, but I once watched an Omnitheatre feature some years ago that had snowy mountains. I think, if I were to climb the Himalayas, I’d just feel this urge to fall from the heights into the unblemished, boundless snow. And be buried and then become a snow sprite.)
Today has been rather roller-coasterish.
1. Big issue in the morning that got settled by mid-morning.
2. Little bit of news in the morning. [never mind lah:) I'm still here.]
3. Neuroscience results in the late morning. O.O
HH doesn’t read my blog, but I really really really want to thank him. I once told him about the clinical grouping system, and he gave me a very sound piece of advice. “If I were you, I would want to be with people I don’t know very well, but whom I would like to get to know better. The people who’re already my good friends will always be my friends anyway.” I believed in the logic of that, but I strayed from the path due to peer pressure since so many good friends were going together. Faced a dilemma because of that, but HH’s words came back to me.
I won’t regret it, no matter how it turns out.
Gosh, I’ll miss Addie. And it’s sad that my OG has to spilt up. We talk…nonsense. Really nonsense. Just drop in during our lunchtime conversations ^^;;
I hope the rest of you guys in medfac will work out your groups without too much difficulty or any heartache. Perhaps HH’s advice might help you too.
The extended link has details on the clinical grouping system for those who might be interested.
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